vent of feelings.

Sometimes it annoys me how much I care about you.

You could say something, or nothing at all that gets on my nerves,

and yet just looking at you and you pulling me in close makes me forget about it...

and like you even more.

Time away from you and I am more then excited to see you.

I bound in, energy and passion almost tangible towards you,

and there you are - with your calm and carefree way.

Yet despite it sometimes bringing me down to earth,

I love the grounded and ease at how you make me feel.

I think about our future sometimes and find myself getting anxious.

You're so reserved about it all - just so matter of fact that we'll be sweet,

that I dare not voice my concerns.

I just have to ride it with you and worry about it when it comes to that.

This ridiculous feeling, missing you after a day and wanting to just be with you,

can sometimes be so annoying.

But exciting all the same.

You make me smile and laugh.

You make me calm and relaxed.

You make me confused and worried.

But I love every way you make me feel.

Grief

Grief.

Is it tangible?

Does it physically break your heart?

Does it make your bones weak and your head feel drained of blood?

I don't mean the emotional sense; that is evident on people's faces.

I mean - medically, can you see it?

Does it ever mend?

A certain part of life that harms so many;

should there not be something we can take to lessen the damage?

Grief.

Is it tangible?

I look at the people around me and feel I know the answer.

Yes, people's hearts are fractured and their strength is weak,

never really the same or physically as strong again.

but

I want to help you, but I don't know how.

I can see you hurting, but ignoring it to put others first.

I can see your sadness, but also your hesitation to acknowledge it.

I can see the shield that is there, but I will always try to pull it down.

I can dote on you with cuddles and kisses, but sometimes they go astray.

I try and find your eyes, but they vacantly stare at nothing.

I try to find my way in, but you've learnt to rely on yourself.

I love you and am here for, but sometimes you don't see that.